Creating Content: The Other Side Of Productivity & Inspiration
I haven't felt uber inspired to produce this weeks blog to be completely honest as I haven't been in a super great frame of mind. My thoughts have been scatty and my emotions have been strewn across my bedroom floor like dirty clothes I need to put in the wash but simply can't be bothered to. These feelings are partially to do with me wanting my content to be perfect and placing immense amounts of pressure on myself that would result in pooping rainbows or growing a second head. But just like every other week, Thursday rolls around and I have nothing, no inspiration or motivation to sit down and pour the next 12 hours into writing which is a draining standard I've gotten a little too used to.
Even when I don't have a hard hitting subject to cover or questions to raise I still wish to keep my steady rhythm of posting every Thursday because even though creating new content can drive me up the wall it still very much keeps me sane and it would feel like a part of me was missing. I believe it is also important to show these grey areas where inspiration is high and dry as not even great artistic legends felt compelled to create all the time.
So as much as every blog is for me as it is for you, this one is doubly for me as a reminder that I don't have to work to the bone for something to be great and if you need this reminder then I guess it's doubly for you too. These phases are not an uncommon occurrence for me as I have experienced them many times in the past few years of really tapping into who I am as an artist so if you too are in a similar boat, let's hang out.
I'm getting better at reminding myself that my worth is not determined by how productive I am and that no two people are the same let alone are on the same trajectory so comparing is irrelevant. I am now choosing to let inspiration come naturally and only acting when I feel inspired to along with letting myself feel what it is I need to rather than denying and rejecting those parts of who I am in this lifetime. Resting and taking a step back is of the utmost importance so I can rejuvenate and rebuild with a clearer and more intentional mindset.
I think as humans we strive for perfection because deep down we know what it feels like to be imperfect but I also think it's a full circle moment when you realise that those imperfections aren't there for no reason and that when we integrate them they can indeed work for you.